Lately

Lately, as hard as it is to find a job..is as hard as it is to find someone. Never knew it was so much work. I do realize that right now I'm so focused. My future is so so close right now I can feel it. Trying to keep my grades up, college next year. OMG! Never had I been so eager to accept responsibility. I'm trying to get my life in order. So senior year, it's go be all about me (I wish). Only thing that's pissing me off is the fact that I can't find a dude! I have my fair share of options, complain to myself that I don't need one. Hah BULL SHIT. As I get them I lose them, then replace them, then do it all over again. This is me, just me taking on my small part of the world. So I be honest, maintain a "take me as I am" mentality. Just seems like boys now-a-days can't respect that, can't handle the full blooded truth. So what do I do?